Food and energy and stuff

Just finished dinner. Sincerely wish I had got more of the hot millet casserole-y thing and less of the veggie lasagna from the coop. The lasagna had too much cheese on top. And the millet (with tomatoes and onions and cauliflower and lemon-y-ish flavors) was very good. Teach me to hedge my bets on new dishes.

I'm thinking a lot about food this week, because I have somehow ended up riding about 65 miles since Monday, just getting around town (abt 25 miles more than my usual weekly commute). Also spent the whole day walking around on Wednesday, and some other time walking today. Hence, I have been eating a -lot- of food this week. Which makes me happy.

Been working hard in the last few years to decouple weight, exercise and food. Mostly feel like I'm making progress. Don't know what I weigh most of the time; don't care (except every once in a while, when I do.) The last few days, I've been wanting to check my weight, because surely all this work = weight loss. BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT, SELF! The point is riding my bike is fun! And convenient, because god parking is stupid. And I love how strong my legs are right now. And I love eating all the great different foods I've tried this week. And all the mental and physical energy I have, when I'm expending a lot of physical energy every day.

But dang, those old thought patterns are deeply ingrained.